The bitterness and hate

Sometimes you carry so much of bitterness and hate inside that you don't end up realising how much you can hurt people (or a person) with it. While you don't accept the hate it builds up this huge ego inside you that makes you consciously attempt to be indifferent to people and things that probably still mean the world to you.

You end up burning so many bridges that when you want to cross back you know it can never happen again. You live on... with the thought of never being able to apologise or go back and see what went wrong. You will always wonder why someone wanted to reach out to you, when they tried. You end up living with the thought that you may never even get a chance to hold someone and tell them you were sorry. Maybe it won't matter so much that you can't live on as seemingly normal. Somehow you were miserable before and will remain miserable after.

Then you come to a day when you realise not all is lost. Not because you tried, because people still reached out to you. You've been given one more chance. You know you were sorry. Take that opportunity to say it. Fix it. When you've got nothing, you've got nothing to lose.

I'm sorry. I mean it.

P.S. Don't ask. I won't tell.