A friend made me realised how I have been complaining about people at work for many many years now. I look back and realise how correct she is.
I have been going on and on about how the people I've worked with were dumb. How they were always so caught up in making themselves look good and someone else look bad. The way they manipulated things and how I was always the oppressed one. Or how I love my role but I just don't feel I want to do my best in the current place or in current circumstances.
I realise I've been so negative about these people and how I don't think I will ever truly be satisfied unless I find people who can stand up for themselves and for you when needed. I know I always feel that in this dog eat dog corporate world I will never make it out stable because the attitudes are so fucked up. I know that someone who sucks up or is pretentious has a greater chance and I don't because I simply don't care. I know I will not build relationships here because if I can't stand them now, how will I stand them later. I feel people most of times have the authority or position to take credit for something that should have been yours and that while you did all the dirty work, someone else will snatch the honours.
I've believed that illogical people who follow rules are actually considered smart rather than a logical person that questions the very system. I've felt that if you question authority you will be labelled a trouble maker and it's easier for people with no sense of purpose to question your logic with absolute bullshit.
Something happened over the last 2 days.
It comforts me to know I was always right.
I have been going on and on about how the people I've worked with were dumb. How they were always so caught up in making themselves look good and someone else look bad. The way they manipulated things and how I was always the oppressed one. Or how I love my role but I just don't feel I want to do my best in the current place or in current circumstances.
I realise I've been so negative about these people and how I don't think I will ever truly be satisfied unless I find people who can stand up for themselves and for you when needed. I know I always feel that in this dog eat dog corporate world I will never make it out stable because the attitudes are so fucked up. I know that someone who sucks up or is pretentious has a greater chance and I don't because I simply don't care. I know I will not build relationships here because if I can't stand them now, how will I stand them later. I feel people most of times have the authority or position to take credit for something that should have been yours and that while you did all the dirty work, someone else will snatch the honours.
I've believed that illogical people who follow rules are actually considered smart rather than a logical person that questions the very system. I've felt that if you question authority you will be labelled a trouble maker and it's easier for people with no sense of purpose to question your logic with absolute bullshit.
Something happened over the last 2 days.
It comforts me to know I was always right.
I think it's high time you left that corporate dog-eat-dog world!! And worked somewhere where you know you'll never face these problems. A place where people already have a relationship with you and where you will be appreciated and loved...
ReplyDeleteNow, I wonder where this place might be..... Maybe somewhere in your "home town"? Hmmm... I don't know, Marty, do you know of any place like this? Hmmm.......!!
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