Finally watched it!

I finally saw Avatar today. I'm sure the earnings talk for themselves but apart from the 3D and cinematography I really thought the movie was okay.

I'm not a great movie critic or anything, actually the very fact that I'm probably the last person to watch this movie in the world (leaving out the people who are below poverty line) should tell you that I'm not a very avid movie watcher either.

This post is just about that!

P.S. Will try to practice some restraint on writing posts about my work. I realise how bad they've got!

Here we go again!

My work's been hell in the two weeks of Jan 2010. It's gone from bad to worse to being in a pool full of shit and you can't swim (yes, I know. That's shitty.). It's really become intolerable! It's one of things that makes you give up on hope. Each morning (afternoon) when I get ready to go to work my body starts starts failing on me. Just the other day something came up and I was so tensed that I actually ended up having loosies!!

My attempts that finding another job have hit a wall too. Somehow nothing seems to go my way. I've even tried prayer (this is being said in a very non blasphemous way)! One option is to screw everything and join Vikram (who is man enough to take the risk and setup his own "creative shop"), but then I know jack of what he does and plus I'm just not the type who'll take a chance (I told you - I'm boring).

But this whole thing has brought out one great quality in me. Ahimsa (Mahatma Gandhi would be so proud)! I've become non-violent, non-reactive, non-responsive, non-man! Not saying Gandhi was non-man - he took out the British and I can't even deal with my fellow country men! Being patient is like knowing that you're still stuck in the pool of shit, you'll eventually get out alive but the smell will stay on you forever! But what the hell, at least you're still alive. So what if you've changed a "little bit". If something doesn't happen fast - that'll be me!

Well, tomorrow is another day towards attaining nirvana through ahimsa (some shit like that).

P.S. I thought this would be good if it reached out a lot of people (not my post, but what I'm saying below)

Vikram as you know is starting his own "creative shop" which will do everything related to creativity. Yes, you guessed it. Ads, write-ups, photos, interior decoration, etc. etc. All he needs is a name. You see when babies are born, they don't come out being "Martin". You first make the baby then the name!

So, be kind and suggest some cool names. You will not receive any royalty incase he picks something you suggest. But surely if you suggest something stupid, Vikram and I will sit next weekend and bitch about you! :)

Resolutions and something like that.

There's not a single person who can say they've never has a resolution. I'm not talking about new years resolution. Just resolution in general. I've made mine. Some I've stuck to, most I can't even remember.

2010 is here. I have no resolution. No sir, not a single thing that I think I need to especially do in this year. Should tell you how satisfied I am with life or how lethargic I've become.

See now I said there isn't something I'd like to "especially" do. Which means there is stuff I would like (people) to do. Top 3 below.

First, I want people to stop having so much pity for themselves. Too many people I know that are feeling too sorry for themselves. I hate having to deal with them (unless I really care, which in my knowing is only 1 person). The attention deficit disorder is fucking giving me a headache. Maybe if your life is so bad you should kill yourself! I'll even try to make it to the funeral!

Second, (I've said this before) stop being pseudo! I'm not a cool person and if I don't try so hard why are you trying so hard with me?? I've accepted with grace that I'm not all that fancy and I'm happy! I spent the new years eve at Vikram's place with people I love most and that is my idea of fun!

Third, because we have the same problem doesn't make us brothers (it's not a fucking club)! I'm just a nice person for listening to you. That doesn't mean you start expecting Christmas cards from me. I have problems and they're as unique as everyone else's and I will deal with them. So thank you but I do not need advise (when I do, I will ask for it).

Tell me, is this too much to ask for?

The year gone by..

I know the year still isn't over, but I doubt anything significant will happen in the next 2 days and since I have woken up at the ass crack of dawn I may as well post a summary of my year. You will now understand why I don't believe anything significant happen in the next 2 days..

February this year was when I came back from Noida. The hell-hole! India's own Gotham City, where McDonalds refuses to deliver after 8:00pm "for security reasons". You never know which hungry murderer maybe lurking in the dark looking for french fries, large coke and a McChicken! I was glad to be back home to Pune, but my work for the first time in my career has been affected majorly by this move. Not something you've not already read about previously...

March was when I got a promotion or at least the excuse for a promotion. I'm still getting paid peanuts! Recession was the most abused excuse in the year 2009. Most of you will agree. People decided not to have babies because of recession! I'm sure the amount they spent on contraceptives would've been more than the cost of having a baby (with all the insurance, you know).

This was also the year of marriages. Three of my cousins got married (Delhi, Simla and Rajasthan), one got engaged and two other friends took the plunge as well. Brave fuckers ("fuckers" being ironically situated in the sentence).

How could I forgot this - I started writing my blog in March and have successfully managed to stay away from social networking. The pressure to join facebook though was like being 1000 meters below sea level (the analogy "sucks", I know!). Somewhere in between I also decided not to have an opinion and since that decision, I think I've done well. But I realise how boring it's getting to write. So, I'm back.

Gona got engaged and Vikram is going to end the year single (unless you can come up with a freakin' miracle dude). Lynell is still the way he is and Tarun has remained married for a year (way to go man!). Rashmi continues to be the female Jim Corbett (only the smart will understand) and Shweta, well, for the sake of my life I will not comment!

Herbert has worked twice this year and Richard worked once too much (I hope this is taken in good humor as it was intended)! I did not meet my goal of finding another job by the end of the year but that's alright 'cause there's always first quarter of 2010 (and then second quarter and so on..)

On the whole, the year has been okay. The past will stay in the past and future will be worked upon in the present.

That's all folks! Happy new year!

P.S. The internet remained to stay working for more than a week! Major bloody achievement of 2009. Long live BSNL!

Still in the game!

I was driving to work today when I stopped at a crossing to let a car pass by. I could see there were two very cute girls sitting in that car, but didn't think of it too much. Suddenly as they crossed me the driver stuck her head out and whistled at me and to top it off it was really loud.

So... I don't know what the right reaction to something like this is. All I could do was smile from ear to ear and carry on with my life.

It wasn't to end there. Apparently the old couple on a scooter behind me saw this and when the old man finally had his chance at over-taking me, he and his wife smiled at me and he called out "aarey hero"!!

Twice in one day, I sat in my car with a feeling I cannot describe. Except that I just could not stop smiling both times. I must look like an idiot to other people.

Looks like I've still got the moves baby! HE HE HE HE..

It's the most wonderful time.

Richard's back from the hospital today.

My appraisal discussion went very well (atleast a lot better than I expected).

No work for the next three days.

It has to be the most wonderful time of the year!! Merry Christmas!

Our fragile lives...

Last night when I got back home from work, my mum told me that my elder brother was admitted in the hospital. He had to be taken there while he was at work. He had high blood pressure and the doctors even suspect he may have had a mild heart attack!

Richard, my elder brother, will not come across as someone who could suffer from this. He stands over 6'2" and is close to 85 kilos and is healthy as a bull (from where I see it). He's normally calm as a cucumber and doesn't really take too much load in life.

I saw him at the hospital (at about 1:30am) and he still had a normal looking smile and looked pretty "pink of health" to me. He asked for a book to read - which tells me he feels absolutely normal.

I don't know what to make of all this. What I do know is that his work stresses him out. Which makes me look back and I remember saying that it's just not worth it.

Our lives are way too fragile. I don't want to spend mine thinking about all the things that went wrong. I don't have the energy anyway. A very good friend of mine had to actually call me up (from very far) and tell me that I have become very wierd. That is just me - recuperating. It's me pulling all that I have together again. My instincts in the past have led me to be like this before knowing I'm going to need it. I know why.

Get well soon Richard!

And all of you out there - no matter how important something you do is to someone else, make sure it's important to you. Keep well.